20091223

wurrmawkt

COME ON OUT YOU COWARDS

You're beautiful and amazing and
The biggest portion of my puzzle.
Like a soldier to his prey
I say,
Where are you hiding?

20091214

mission statement

i will post every poem i write here, regardless of its content, so that i don't lose it. it may take awhile for me to recall this blog, for that reason i may not post for a couple of months, and then create a new entry with lots of poems. this is more of a promise to myself.

various pohms update

Spring Showers

   If I am a mountain,
You are the soft,       pattering rain;
   Surrounding me, glistening;
giving the gift of life to all that may sprout from mine soil.
    And when the clouds do grow tired, retiring their dreary puffs,
You will remain as a warm and gleeful sea of tears,
Suspended wildly along my slopes athirst.
    And if the winds or sun should pose threat to you,
          Know always
That I will protect and shelter you from them all
With leaves that would tumble for you in fall,
 Reflect you in each aging plane of their dancing petioles.
          I’ll know always
May I not feel your gentle showers,
    tepid or frigid as they were
               for quite some time,
That your eyes shine atop the trees I’ve sown
   The shade is yours once they have grown.


DIRTY HAIR

I lay me down,
And my bed creaks like the
Groan of an arthritis drone.
Spine searing like a Wednesday morning
 Trudging forward, I wait so ill-prepared.
  When the sun comes up I'll be alive in
  shell,
Stumbling through the hours in arsenic
  hell.
To dwell: being gone before life's void is
met.
Trust respect.


untitled

from distorted pitches of my childhood
  To
twisted poetry of the present.
Mind mind, aforementioned.


assorted haikus

my face, it is a
battlefield, and to save it
i must hide indoors.

my knees hurt because
I have lived and I will die
and I won't die young.

my scars burn because
They bloom like roses, bloody
inside a trashbin.

my jaw aches because
Dark rooms induce laziness
and boys will be boys.

-

i turned against the
Wind to light my cigarette;
it blew right through me.

it burned my finger,
the wind does not believe in
Ghosts. now I am charred.


coal
the whole room is pulsating
with lurid life, swaying
much like a druid entranced
and within the backlit pale white and
gray
I am the pupil
trapped inside a socket
I am the pupil
I'm darker than you.

I dance in a forest of lead
Death smiles knowingly in shadows cast
by industrial trees and heavy clouds
that swim inside my head.
I've left something behind
with the lifeless metal clanging scene
Echoing in a city
of lifeless streets still untrodden
belonging to me, I put my
friends inside. They belong to me and,
the noise will wear them down;
We're all gears of a shared destiny.

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pohmz extndd

cloud
alone in my bed
shimmering like still, cool shade
treading water under moonlight.
Images float heavy like postage stamps
on the envelope of a memorized letter.
barely breathing;
alive until eyes flutter reluctantly open.

putrid nozzle
and how we wore those
stupefied masks like
badges over our hearts;
like scars atop our veins.

Proper Princes of Dark Domains
Are those
deep sea, amphibious
souls more alive
or self-gratifying
than their brothers
and sisters, impostors
and self-sufficient
fishes of our society?
For they cast their
own light, and it is so notable.
So very admirable. These
glowing, flashing and just as instantly
as they were sent flooding through
dense waters, disappearing subterranean
streetlights - could they be a golden
cane wrapped in decorative, holiday paper?
Is simplicity their statement - and if this is so,
why do they glimmer to confuse and ward off
predators - those who cannot swim but stand on
varying limbs, thousands no billions of subtle, invisible,
and oh so many proud and irrelevant and universally banal
painted landscapes. Weathered and carved and balancing
topsy-turvy curvy monsters which we are all expected
to exist in harmony with atwixt razor-sharp tree branches and fate.
These inescapable bed-time short story heroes, villains and
victims,
They are, despite the light and its purpose,
attracted intrigued and provoked by thought
to analyze
That which could be, in the broad spectrum
of things, and not dismally but maybe so,
nothing at all.
An attraction which is not conceivably welcomed
nor pardoned - simply kept buried beneath
reflections of sunsets, various birds, moons stars
and for that matter cars, cigarettes and if you
can picture it auditory diarrhea (garbage)
as a fuck you, bold underlined italicized and
colored blue, yellow, green, red and black.
I do apologize, however not withdraw, the
Word and WordPerfect-esque assumed snarl
'cause they are not my street signs to post.
I do not live in this
dark neighborhood of perfect archetype
drug-induced technicolor. It just so happens
that the aforementioned dream and mutual love-like
alley is not
for me
to swim in.


Deux 2 Tango
What do I see?
Self-awareness, admitted ignorance
Brilliance like opal
Sitting comfortably in my pocket.
The sound of ballpoint
Bringing to life a secret society
one that no one of us will ever enter.
Head bobbing and hand gliding across
the page that was,
just moments ago,
empty and loud and so many other
adjectives, maybe lonely but surely not to be wasted.
Thoughts, invisible, churn inside
carbon and its associates.
Single words if they could hover
like halos over our brows
would spontaneously and momentarily
become tangled in midair.
Even more amazingly, this phenomenon
would unfold above us, we, so unknowingly,
dance with spirits of introspection,
spilling like water bottles and coffee cups.
A shortage of ink did separate these
innocent incantations of our minds, until personal
nature runs its course, and sounds of paper pen and poetry
commence.

Milton Mothberg's Loss of Innocence
Why does the insect seek the light so fervently?
does it represent some distant, possibly unattainable
source of warmth? or is it such?
perhaps the light is an escape from the cold earth;
and when he shows his avarice,
he might (you may see him) fly about, rapidly making
brutal contact with a wall or any nearby surface.
has he realized that the light, so hallowed and
subject to a hefty list of promises in his bug world
is not much more than a glowing hollow chamber
of emptiness? does he see it for what it is?
the slamming of his small body into disappointing
frigid sporadic selections of siding and metal
and wood could be, in response to this realization,
an attempt at suicide.
it is possible that each light we see -
streetlights, bedroom windows protected by screens,
car lights, lamps, et cetera
is a haven for lost insect souls of new found emptiness.
and- and, and, and - if our human ears could manage it -
that is, manage to listen ... we might hear shrill, trembling
cries of despair and hatred, damning the insects in
power and cushioned shaded seats. insects self-righteous and proud, insects who
know their fate and question absolutely nothing.

Anchored Deeply
and my eyes did jiggle
horizontally.
i thought it was
almost frantically,
momentarily.
but it's okay.
they'll run on top
and around you
maybe in circles,
you know, i don't mind.
when warm vines have
captured me, i surrender,
and great scott i love it.
i wonder now, you think
a lot - but you think nothing of it.
hush, taciturn the warm
will be, it should but i wish
it wouldn't stay.
tumble down a small
black neon hole
gravity here it plays hardball.
enjoy the rest of your night.

Nw Tt Mg Fm Gg
no longer devoid of law
is this mine-field of volcanoes
that spill tears
and force quick changes
of position
like a cool handgun pressed to a
startled innocent.
trenches
also like foxholes
with beauty not yet realized
should eyes desperately sought
remain at one with the sea.

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hug
in your old, old nightgown i cause you to flinch and turn away
i'm screaming now
moments ago i was pleading
as if for my life
because the neighbors will hear
fuck the neighbors
i'm tired of listening
to your shrill cries
of bloody murder
and voodoo
upon wrinkles and
twinkles that make me
smile and shrivel inside
with grief and woe
for what is to come.
please relax and go to bed
before all three of us
have heart attacks
then i wouldn't
cry for any of us.

more.

soaring at low altitudes
i still think about you sometimes;
when the reels of my mind start to turn on rewind.
i find that you may still be lost,
the cost, of my caring so daring was grave.
you're the archetype fairytale princess i'll never save.
but i'll carry my compassion 'til it fades from red to gray.
someday, far too far in the future
for even pithy words to say -
or for this song to play and stray away.
away, away, away.
there are too many things that i have to say;
away, away, away.
have been these thoughts for some time
until today, i decide to say -
that there's no peace for a lover choosing to quietly keep
away, away, away.
and my memories are gone not too soon before i decay.

jeez

it's been awhile.

Mr. Kelly Nicholson

if i should be wronged,
to stare a stale wound 'til it scars with time
would i choose the path of vengeance
or forgive a paw made lame of mine?
would i chain the swam to the Earth, so damp,
commanding her sweet eyes
fixed
upon her duckling, fleeing in terror
from my hedonistic guise
Red by a pack of ferocious hounds
closing the distance to tear this
feathered fiend
to shreds
A child who shivered but dared not cry
From there would I be pacified?
or burdened a crimson mind?
to understand is to stray.
eyes on the clock:
relish each minute like wine.